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Como si la hubiera tenido...

La extraño tanto como si nunca la hubiera tenido. Extraño su pelo, extraño sus besos. Extraño su sonrisa iluminando mi desvelo 

La extraño tanto como si nunca la hubiera tenido porque ya no la recuerdo acurrucada justo al centro, no tan cerca de mi pecho, decía, porque a veces me da miedo 

La extraño tanto que recuerdo con detalle cada una de sus pestañas, recuerdo la comisura de esos labios que siempre me contaban historias, que se convertían en magia al recorrerlos.

La extraño mucho mucho porque ya nadie juega así con mi pelo, porque no hay mayor despliegue de ternura que su mano en mi costado izquierdo, porque nadie cuestiona cada uno de mis pensamientos.

La extraño tanto que puedo sentir de nuevo su perfume, y también esa vibrante sensación que brotaba de su cuello. La extraño tanto que recuerdo esos lunares prohibidos, esos muslos eternos. 

Extraño mucho sus caricias furtivas, extraño tanto sus falsos consuelos. Extraño su cara de sorpresa al ver que una tarde había pasado como sólo un momento. 

La extraño tanto que los amaneceres se me hacen noches, que los paraísos se convierten infiernos. Extraño tanto que no puedo sentir su memoria, que no puedo creer que algo tan bueno haya sido cierto 

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